the 364 days of christmas.. o, and christmas eve

*WARNING* this post may b offenceive to some ppl, so if u find it offencive, just stop reading it.. it's not that hard.

(ok, now back to our regularly schedualed rant)

yep.. thats right....

time for another "rant form the grave"

this one is about the merry happy time called christmas

yep that's right... fucking christmas, bah humbug to the whole damn thing

ya, it started out with a great idea, let's celebrate jesus being born.. i can get behind the church wanting to celebrate that, ya ppl would exchange small gifts but the main focus was family

but then some guy desided "fuck baby jesus, let's instead have an old, fat man sneak into ppl's houses at night and give children gifts for no reason, and just for shits and giggles, let's give him a bunch of micgets in a sweat shop, and flying deer to pull the sleigh"
ya, cause that makes so much sence

if that happened any other day of the year wanna know what we'd call that?... an attempt at pedophelia, then the cops would b gettting a few rings
and now, ppl in some other country, i think germany maybe, is trying to get rid of santa too, just not have a reason for giving shitto ppl except "it's christmas" it's just become a bullshit way for buisnesses to make more money, now i will admit, there r a few ppl who do still hold the true meaning of chritmas in their hearts, but i'm sure the number is falling last

what really annoys me is x-mas has basicly ass-raped all the other holidays out of the way

thanksgiving? whats that?

halloween? never heard of it

can u believe this? it was the begining of fucking october, i tune into a radiostation i like and guess what i hear?

"dashing through the snow, in a one horse opened sleigh..."

ya thats right... fucking jingle bells in the begining of october

now i know there isnt that many halloween songs but i can at least play "monster mash" a few times, or, hell i know that one year a radio played "i like candy" cand called it a halloween song

now that is a bit of a stretch but at least they were trying

but ya, last time i checked it was "the 12 days of christmas", not "the 364 days od christmas + christmas eve"

pretty soon i'll b buying fire works for the 4th of july, and then christmas trees right across the road

it's fucking pathetic

well to b honest, thats accually all i have to say right now... i'm not really in the right mood to really rant about anything, but i'll probibly change this next year when im my normal scrooge-like self again, so watch out for that

why i hate love

im warning u guys now... this blog could possibibly become deeper than ur avaerage mud puddle.

well here is my thoughts on "love"

i think that love, and hate to, r over used, but underused to mean what they r spoesed to mean.

i cant count the number of times i have heard someone say
"oh, i LOVE these cookies!"
or "I hate this band"or any other unimportant thing that they happen to be looking at at that time.

in fact i highly doubt they have ever felt real love.
the kind of love where u will do almost everything to make them happy.
where just them in a room is enough for u to be happy.

saddly there arent very many ppl who know about this kind of love.
and those who do r mostly those of the older generation, like my grandma's generation.

ppl dont realize that love is a verb. not just a word.
u accually have to DO love, u have to FEEL love, u have to ACT love.
and ppl just dont realize this.

that is y i think there is so many divorces these days.
ppl get married, the highest form of love u can really show, and they realize that it takes work to make love work. it isnt something that u can just say once and leave it at that. u should show it every second of every day of every year til the end of time.

my biggest fear is that im the only one who thinks like i do.. the only one who accually understands what it means to feel, tho i ignore my feelings well i still feel them, i just find it alot ezer to not act on them...

my confort comes from finding ppl on the internet who r like me, who see the beauty in life and who care about others... ya, i know... i thought they were myths too, but i have met several careing ppl.

my new fear is that i am a dieing breed, once i die then caring ppl will b gone forever, all that will b left is selfishness and greed and general dislike for everyone... i take confort in knoing that i will not b around to see such miseries take place.

thought of the day...

"I will walk the Path of Orpheus
1000 times over if i need to,
just to give u a good day"